Jeannie Mai is opening up about her rollercoaster experience with motherhood!

The TV personality, who welcomed her first child, a daughter named Monaco Mai-Jenkins, with her husband Jeezy in January, recently addressed the transformative journey.

During a candid discussion with ET‘s Kevin Frazier, the 43-year-old talked about the difficulties she faced before embracing her new life as a mother.

Jeannie Mai Says She Did Not Feel Privileged To Be A Mother

Everyone has different ways of accepting motherhood, but for the “How Do I Look?” star, facing this new phase of her life did not come without its trials.

Mai revealed that she suffered from various worries during her pregnancy because a part of her believed she did not deserve to experience the joys of motherhood, which the entertainer described as a “beautiful privilege.”

Recalling the emotional period, the San Jose native explained that her concerns about having a baby came from her past stance on the matter. In the TV personality’s words:

“I honestly got a lot of anxiety because I thought, for somebody who said their whole life that they didn’t wanna be a mom and here this gift was being given to me.”

The mother-of-one continued that being blessed with a child made her nervous while navigating her day-to-day activities because she felt the slightest mistake would harm her child. Mai said:

“I felt like, ‘Don’t put yourself in risky situations, like don’t get on a plane or — you are the one to have this taken away from you because you didn’t appreciate it when you had the choice.’ “

After battling these pre-birth concerns, the “Steampunk’d” star’s war against anxiety did not end there, as she faced postpartum depression after welcoming her daughter.

Although the…